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Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I just saw the movie Julie & Julia, and I was left very inspired. Not with French food cooking but with writing my thoughts again. It has never been this long that I'm on a blog-hiatus, not that I don't have something interesting to share but it's because I got too busy with reunions - and let's say I'm busy dealing with my personal "issues".
Reunions and happenings.
I've grown to be the most congenial in my group now I guess, which is very far from being a "bully" way back high school days. I swear the last thing that I wanna do back then is to sit down in an "Open forum", because I know everyone has an issue with me being upfront, straight forward and tactless. I am not really sure if all of us just grew up and has become more matured now or I became careful on the things that I do. Well, I guess it doesn't matter now anymore.
I've grown up to be one of the most loved, to be the life of parties and gatherings (modesty aside) which is far from me being deviant during my younger years. I suddenly become the center (if not, the most noticed) of the parties maybe because I'm loud, because I'm funny, and because I curse someone who'll not attend. It might be the reason as to why I head almost all of the reunions we plan. Maybe because I have this power to bring people together (someone told me that, echusera gusto n'ya lang akong gamitin. lol) and make a reunion possible.
With work and priorities in life.
I am convinced that where I am right now shouldn't be the same place that I needed to be come the end of the first quarter. I am busy working my papers to be out of this country as soon as possible.
I've processed my NBI clearance and passport application alone. There's something in me that really enjoys whenever I'm in a pool of strangers. I find satisfaction doing things alone - in figuring things out by myself, in finishing what I've started without someone behind me. I enjoyed it as much as I love doing shopping alone and the satisfaction and thrill I can get of watching a flick in a movie house alone. I love asking people that I don't know with directions or sharing plain stories with a person next/in front of you in a line waiting for our turn.
With what to write.
Admittedly, this website kept me sane for the last year, after losing the chance of being promoted. This blog helped me to move on and continue with my queer life. This page opened my soul to everyone, not only it helped me to express my thoughts and frustrations but also it allowed me to share those funny and jologs stories I have in mind.
Writing an entry, serious or funny is like a breath of fresh air whenever I feel bored or suffocated with everyday routinary activities. It serve as an outlet to break the monotonous life I'm living for roughly five years now.
Few days back, I tried several times to make an entry but I had to stop because I'm not happy with what I'm doing. Believe me I have a hundred of stories to share ever since then but I can't seem to put it all here because I'm not in my best element.
My planner and I.
Yes! Italk to my planner now.
Not in my 27 (I just turned 27 last Friday) years of existence never had I imagine to be a diary freak. Well, I am now. I got my 5th planner from Starbucks this year and I promised myself that this time I'll get it inked. Not that I have a handful of things to plan of but it's just for me to follow my deadlines and goals especially now that I'm gonna try my luck alone -offshore.
Midlife crisis.
I'm over this. I know.
I remember I said before, " I hate the thought of aging ever since I turned 21." Much more when I turned 26. Seeing some of my friends having a job that they like and at the same time seeing them starting a family of their own made me frustrated. It's like that time I've thought of, what if I'm like them, if I'm "hetero"? What if I'm like them, would that make me happier?
During last year, I've fought my insecurities. I've taught my myself to be contented of what I have and appreciate what I'm capable of doing. I learned how to be happy with someone's happiness and to pick up the pieces whenever I fall and start anew again. I learned how to let go of those things I can't have and most importantly I have learned to enjoy things that I can have.
I know better in my life now. I can say.
Same time last year, it was hard for me to admit that I'm getting older. Today it's different, I have no regrets of what I have become and what I was years ago. What I know right now is I'll have no qualms to face whatever is in store for me in the future. I learned that getting old gives me a chance to live my everyday life with a better and wiser me.
Reunions and happenings.
I've grown to be the most congenial in my group now I guess, which is very far from being a "bully" way back high school days. I swear the last thing that I wanna do back then is to sit down in an "Open forum", because I know everyone has an issue with me being upfront, straight forward and tactless. I am not really sure if all of us just grew up and has become more matured now or I became careful on the things that I do. Well, I guess it doesn't matter now anymore.
I've grown up to be one of the most loved, to be the life of parties and gatherings (modesty aside) which is far from me being deviant during my younger years. I suddenly become the center (if not, the most noticed) of the parties maybe because I'm loud, because I'm funny, and because I curse someone who'll not attend. It might be the reason as to why I head almost all of the reunions we plan. Maybe because I have this power to bring people together (someone told me that, echusera gusto n'ya lang akong gamitin. lol) and make a reunion possible.
With work and priorities in life.
I am convinced that where I am right now shouldn't be the same place that I needed to be come the end of the first quarter. I am busy working my papers to be out of this country as soon as possible.
I've processed my NBI clearance and passport application alone. There's something in me that really enjoys whenever I'm in a pool of strangers. I find satisfaction doing things alone - in figuring things out by myself, in finishing what I've started without someone behind me. I enjoyed it as much as I love doing shopping alone and the satisfaction and thrill I can get of watching a flick in a movie house alone. I love asking people that I don't know with directions or sharing plain stories with a person next/in front of you in a line waiting for our turn.
With what to write.
Admittedly, this website kept me sane for the last year, after losing the chance of being promoted. This blog helped me to move on and continue with my queer life. This page opened my soul to everyone, not only it helped me to express my thoughts and frustrations but also it allowed me to share those funny and jologs stories I have in mind.
Writing an entry, serious or funny is like a breath of fresh air whenever I feel bored or suffocated with everyday routinary activities. It serve as an outlet to break the monotonous life I'm living for roughly five years now.
Few days back, I tried several times to make an entry but I had to stop because I'm not happy with what I'm doing. Believe me I have a hundred of stories to share ever since then but I can't seem to put it all here because I'm not in my best element.
My planner and I.
Yes! Italk to my planner now.
Not in my 27 (I just turned 27 last Friday) years of existence never had I imagine to be a diary freak. Well, I am now. I got my 5th planner from Starbucks this year and I promised myself that this time I'll get it inked. Not that I have a handful of things to plan of but it's just for me to follow my deadlines and goals especially now that I'm gonna try my luck alone -offshore.
Midlife crisis.
I'm over this. I know.
I remember I said before, " I hate the thought of aging ever since I turned 21." Much more when I turned 26. Seeing some of my friends having a job that they like and at the same time seeing them starting a family of their own made me frustrated. It's like that time I've thought of, what if I'm like them, if I'm "hetero"? What if I'm like them, would that make me happier?
During last year, I've fought my insecurities. I've taught my myself to be contented of what I have and appreciate what I'm capable of doing. I learned how to be happy with someone's happiness and to pick up the pieces whenever I fall and start anew again. I learned how to let go of those things I can't have and most importantly I have learned to enjoy things that I can have.
I know better in my life now. I can say.
Same time last year, it was hard for me to admit that I'm getting older. Today it's different, I have no regrets of what I have become and what I was years ago. What I know right now is I'll have no qualms to face whatever is in store for me in the future. I learned that getting old gives me a chance to live my everyday life with a better and wiser me.
***oo0oo***
I want to thank those who dropped me a birthday greeting through Email, SMS, Friendster, Multiply, Facebook and who greeted me personally and for the presents.
If only birthday greeting is as good as 1 grand, I'm literally rich right now.
Thanks for showering me love. Hugs to everyone!
If only birthday greeting is as good as 1 grand, I'm literally rich right now.
Thanks for showering me love. Hugs to everyone!
February 2, 2010 9:26 PM
i missed reading your blogs..it's been a while, huh? best of luck to whatever path you'll take my friend. :)
May 22, 2010 12:31 PM
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